the past, my past.

to get better i had to realize that i was so stuck in my past, bringing all of my trauma into my current life. realizing i had to overcome the negative, because i am living my good live and had everything i ever wanted and desired.

slowly healing my inner child.

i knew that reliving all the things i went through, wasn't going to be easy, but i wasn't expecting that it's going to be this hard.

"A traumatic event is an incident that causes physical, emotional, spiritual, or psychological harm. The person experiencing the distressing event may feel physically threatened or extremely frightened as a result. In some cases, they may not know how to respond or may be in denial about the effect such an event has had. The person will need support and time to recover from the traumatic event and regain emotional and mental stability."

even the fact, that i had to accept that everything that happened to me - happened. the first step is always to realize and to be okay with the fact, that i'm going through it. and even tho it is hard, its going to be alright. at the end i will be okay and i will be fine. i will be happier and live a healthier life.

i lived so many years in survival mode and did everything i could in those moments. i was surviving, i was a child after all. i didn't knew back then what was going to come in the future, but now that i'm stronger and older, i know that i can get through this, that i will make it.

it is okay to allow the pain.

to allow the sadness and the pain is a big step to get better. because it is a part of the healing process i'm going through. and healing is never easy, because it just hurts. and it is okay that it hurts.

take care of yourself